New mom stuff

The becoming

I have been sleeping away from baby lately. I nurse him to sleep & instead of transferring him into his crib, I sneak out & sleep outside. 

This works for us. Baby stays asleep, I get some quality slumber. 

There’s a precious transformation that has occurred in my becoming a mother. 

I thought in this new identity I’d forget who I was but instead I am becoming more of me. 

Perhaps I was meant to be a mom. I am supposed to be his mom. 

The sacredness of parenthood is perplexing, exhausting, adoring, & bewildering. 

My choosing to stay home with baby is proving to be a remarkable thing. I miss work. I miss the busyness of a work life & the satisfaction of helping others. 

But to actively participate in my son’s growth & wonderment? Oh, this is certainly a priceless experience I cannot afford to miss. 

I am humbled by the challenges of parenthood. They say it takes a village & we have one. I am grateful.  

 

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