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You are so brave and quiet, I forget you are suffering.

–Ernest Hemingway 

I am melancholy. Just for a moment. When I ask you, how are you? You say you are fine. Any problems? No. The answers are soothing in a way but are sad. Because perhaps you don’t know how to say “I need help”.

You are so brave. And I am worried about the future. I try to plan. Preparation soothes me. But perhaps it is not enough. Yet it has to be. 

Caring for others when their health is out of your control feels devastating. Usually I have more control. This is a challenge. We’re afforded an opportunity to grow as a family, individually & collectively. 

We’re all doing our best. Let’s do that then. Our best & let go.